Early last week I got the news that I've lost 31lbs! It's a small milestone in this long journey that I have embarked on. A journey that was long past due. Today I count my blessings 31lbs gone only days before my 31st Birthday, coincidence? I think not, I look up to the heavens and give my God a wink. I've learned to read those little nudges he gives me from time to time. In life we often forget how much we need him for me specifically it's God although others may call him by a different name but for those who believe in a higher being its good to know he's out there. No one can say for certain of what is or what isn't as far as faith goes but isn't that what faith is? Believing in something even when you're not so sure? In my case I've seen prayer work I've seen the work of God in my life I've yelled in anger at my God and have come to him humbled in gratitude for his many blessings. I call on him when I'm in need and on days like today I call on him simply to say thank you. He has proven to me time and time again of his existence even when it was hard to believe or better yet I refused to believe. This is not a sermon and I'm not trying to say my beliefs are the right ones just because I believe that God is exactly who or what we need him to be that doesn't mean that if you feel different that you are wrong. It simply means that you have a different view or outlook on things and isn't that the beauty of living in the land of the free. There are many blessings in my life most of which I call by name. I'm not sure that I could have done it without my family and friends. I took today to reflect on who I was because it plays an important part of who I am. I wasn't too excited about 31 but now that I am here I welcome it and all the wonderful things that come with it. We often forget to take a moment to contemplate on the things that have hurt us as it is usually rather painful but I like to look back and think wow I'm so glad I made it through that dark part of my life. If you read "Dear John" on Poet's Corner you will get a little insight on what was probably one of my darkest moments. When I look back on that it makes me feel stronger. I found myself in the deepest depression I had ever been in. I often cried myself to sleep and faked smiles all day. Even years later I would have days where I would cry on my way to work and once I got there it was all smiles and fun times. Sometimes we don't even realize how truly amazing we really are until we look back and reflect. I wish people would stop feeling bad for knowing their worth. I dislike the negative connotation of being conceited. Shouldn't we all celebrate how wonderful we are? Everyone has something special about them I challenge you to reflect and find those key moments that potentially changed the rest of your life, and if you're in the middle of that darkness that deep pit that is so pitch black there is no end in sight just remember that when you make it out you'll be much stronger and wiser than you've ever been before. Don't be ashamed of being sad because we all feel it sometimes. Find a productive way to gain insight on yourself. For me it's always been writing, for others it may be painting, or crafting. Allow yourself to be sad if you need it but only for a short time. Be it, feel it, then fix it. Thank you so much again for stopping by to hear my rants!
Good day and goodnight from my computer to you I wish to you love, laughter, and happiness.
Good day and goodnight from my computer to you I wish to you love, laughter, and happiness.
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