I haven't been keeping you all as updated as I would like! This year started out so busy already! I haven't been home a single weekend except for Christmas since before Thanksgiving! I have been keeping busy and staying active. Its one of the many changes that have come about in my new lifestyle. I often have hard days but they are mostly filled with amazing ones full of love and support from all of you. I know a lot of people have been wondering how I am loosing weight or what I am doing different. The answer is EVERYTHING! Everything I do is different, from how I sleep to how I eat to how I view life. There was a shift in my life and I am taking full advantage! I can only speak for myself and can share my experiences but this doesn't mean that it will work for everyone, but I have found that the most important thing is looking within yourself and finding out what you really want. I am scared on the daily about gaining weight back, I am down 40 lbs. so far and if feels great to have that off of me, the changes are slow and gradual and that is exactly how I have always wanted them to be. My cpap machine or sleeping machine like I call it has helped me immensely, You don't realize how important a good nights rest is until you actually have it. I came to the hash realization that I didn't know when the last time was that I had actually rested throughout the whole night. I tossed and turned many nights waking up every hour on the hour, or laying there saying ok if I go to sleep now I can sleep 6 solid hours, then ok if I go to sleep now I can get 5 good hours that's enough, then ok 4 hours, 4 hours will work I can last all day on 4 hours, some nights I was lucky if I got a full 3 hours of sleep, some nights no sleep at all and work all day. I didn't know why, I blamed stress or having trouble shutting my brain off at night. My pulmonologist told me that someone has severe apnea if they stop breathing more than 40 times in a period of 1 hour, after my sleep study he looked at me and said, Vanessa, you stopped breathing 68 times on us, we had to hook you up to the machine. It is why I had had a headache almost everyday for the last several years of my life, lack of oxygen during sleep. Its why no matter how hard I tried it was so difficult to find the energy to go anywhere or do anything on my days off. No one understood, the life of an obese young adult wanting and yearning for things that their body just couldn't give them. Telling myself that I was just lazy, when the truth was that I just physically couldn't do anything. I am so fortunate to have decided to do something about my health, with every day that passes I learn just a little bit more about myself. It has been such an interesting journey thus far, the outpour of support is so overwhelming, I know that many of you are cheering for me and I want just wanted you to know that I hear you, and I am cheering for you too, in whatever it is you need cheering for.
The picture above on the left is October 2014 and on the right is January 2015
Good day and goodnight from my computer to you I wish you love, laughter and happiness.
The picture above on the left is October 2014 and on the right is January 2015
Good day and goodnight from my computer to you I wish you love, laughter and happiness.
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