I've always found it amusing when people call other people fat like its a some kind of huge revelation. Anyone who knows anything about struggling with weight knows that you aren't revealing anything new, for a lot of people it's something we've dealt with all our lives for others it may be something new. I've been fortunate to always be comfortable in my own skin and love myself for who I am inside and out. This blog is particularly difficult for me as I don't share my feelings on my weight with a lot of people so I am quite vulnerable sharing the photo to the left and publishing this post. I promised myself when I started this website that no topic would be off limits that if I wanted to be honest with what I'm trying to achieve I had to be honest here too. I have hopes that one day someone will read this and gain insight on themselves and if I can help even one single person then my job here is done.
I started a journey a few months ago to become a healthier person. I don't have a goal of becoming a skinny person or a goal of a certain size I have a goal of becoming healthier and extending my life so that I may enjoy it with those I love. I have many plans for my future one of which includes having children. I have tried so many diets I lost track, people say exercise but when you carry as much weight as I do it is difficult to do the tasks so many people take for granted. You don't really know unless you've been inside the mind or body of someone struggling with weight. It's not always so easy to get out of bed or have the energy to be more physical because it's hard to even sleep. Don't worry this isn't a pity party or a poor me story. This is me taking ownership and responsibility over my own body. This is me trying to not watch what others eat and watch what I eat. I know what I can and can't have and most importantly how much I can have. I have grown to learn that healthy doesn't mean compromising taste it means making smarter choices. I am in no way even close to the end of my journey this is just the beginning. I often find myself discouraged and tired of counting my calories. Then I look at pictures like the one above and I remember. I remember what brought me here in the first place. I remember how I felt in that before picture and how I feel in the after picture. And I am reminded of how much better I will continue feel. I am reminded constantly of all the people out there who have loved me most of my life just the way I've always been and to them I am eternally grateful. I have always and will always look in the mirror and think "Damn, I'm cute!" Words have power only if you let them so call me fat if it makes you feel better because I know I am beautiful and one day I hope you feel beautiful too.
Thank you so much to those of you who are following my posts. All I can hope for is that one day my words will make a difference in someone's life and inspire them.
Good day and goodnight from my computer to you I wish you love, laughter and happiness.
I started a journey a few months ago to become a healthier person. I don't have a goal of becoming a skinny person or a goal of a certain size I have a goal of becoming healthier and extending my life so that I may enjoy it with those I love. I have many plans for my future one of which includes having children. I have tried so many diets I lost track, people say exercise but when you carry as much weight as I do it is difficult to do the tasks so many people take for granted. You don't really know unless you've been inside the mind or body of someone struggling with weight. It's not always so easy to get out of bed or have the energy to be more physical because it's hard to even sleep. Don't worry this isn't a pity party or a poor me story. This is me taking ownership and responsibility over my own body. This is me trying to not watch what others eat and watch what I eat. I know what I can and can't have and most importantly how much I can have. I have grown to learn that healthy doesn't mean compromising taste it means making smarter choices. I am in no way even close to the end of my journey this is just the beginning. I often find myself discouraged and tired of counting my calories. Then I look at pictures like the one above and I remember. I remember what brought me here in the first place. I remember how I felt in that before picture and how I feel in the after picture. And I am reminded of how much better I will continue feel. I am reminded constantly of all the people out there who have loved me most of my life just the way I've always been and to them I am eternally grateful. I have always and will always look in the mirror and think "Damn, I'm cute!" Words have power only if you let them so call me fat if it makes you feel better because I know I am beautiful and one day I hope you feel beautiful too.
Thank you so much to those of you who are following my posts. All I can hope for is that one day my words will make a difference in someone's life and inspire them.
Good day and goodnight from my computer to you I wish you love, laughter and happiness.
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